True endurance doesn't begin until the moment you find carrying on to be completely unfathomable. -John Mayer

I'll ask the sun to shine away from you today
So you can cry
and
I'll ask the clouds to bring the rain for you today
So you can cry

the waiting is over
i mean...it's over

September 27th

4 years ago today, i was defeated...

today, I defeat myself

'We all have friends who, when they knock on the door and we ask, through the door, the question, "Who's there?," answer "It's me". And we recognize that "it is him" or "her"
- Louis Althusser

"If you just sit there the river gonna rise up drown you! Writing could be the boat carry you to the other side." - from the novel Push

when the morning comes...

feeling exhausted today

i kinda lose my faith these days...am i paying too much comparison or i just look down on myself? i know i didn't choose something wrong but just feel like even small little things are hard to control and there is even no time to just sit and get a conversation with God. i truly need Him to just take the wheel and ease me down for a bit.

maybe i just think too much after all these hectic exhausting stuffs to work on today...